Heal Your Future Potential Birth Spell

    One of the hardest things to talk about is how my disability prevents me from having children. I do not mean to take away anyone else's choice in having children or judge them for their unwillingness to give up on the possibility. However, sometimes there are things you can't control. It can be unfair and detrimental to your child if their birth is forced to happen. Their quality of life will sometimes be low, if a developmental problem or chronic illness is genetic. It is important to reflect on why you want a child. For me, it is to start a new line that has learned a karmic lesson I believe is behind my family's genetic auto-immune diseases. I needed a spell that adapt to this. After looking up some healing and fertility spells, I realized I could easily make one. 

    Any spell can be adjusted and customized to meet your needs, so the spell I created can be a guide to help you create your own. Because there is so much on the line when creating new life in to the world, and so much we don't always know, like when the right moment might be, I wanted to allow the magic to do what is best. In 2012, I connected with two possible children while living with who is now my ex. One looked exactly like me, and the other did not have a face. I only saw a shadow of a little boy outlined in white. I never got the chance to try to have those children. 

    When I reflected on this years later, I decided my little girl was trying to warn me that if she came in to being, she would have the same life as me. In the dream world, she seemed very happy and healthy. The shadow child was an unlikely possibility. He could have been a miscarriage. My little girl instructed me to name her Skylar. I would call her Sky. That vision stayed with me and no matter who I was with, I kept my little girl in mind. This has been one of the driving reasons I have tried so hard to heal myself. I was told not too long ago I must go get tested and examined. Depending on what they find, I must make a choice of weather to ontinue in the health state I am at currently, or allow them to remove some things. This means, I must prepare myself to make a very hard decision, weather to hold out hoping for a child, or permanently stop my body from giving birth. The thought of not having kids breaks my heart. I always knew I would never be capable to doing so, but I like to know my body is still capable of giving birth. With all the talk about the problematic emphasis on fertility magic in Wicca, I thought this was a really good subject to write about. I wish it had come up before Halloween, to give me more time, but I was told this very sad news, exactly on Samhain. I also thought it would be good to talk about as so many people seem to be having trouble having children. 

    When going to the fertility clinic and various organizations to help people with disabilities, none had support groups for people that could not have children, because of their disability. the clinic told me I had to have a partner or be trying to have a baby before they would help me. the only books recommended were how to become fertile, not about accepting your body for what it is in its current state. I needed a guide to help me, so I had to make one. I could do a fertility spell on myself, but it did not help me learn to accept myself. that's why this spell is meant to be done slowly over time. You can stop this spell if you receive a message or guidance that changes things. You can even extend it from 9 nights to 9 months. This allows for more meditation and reflection. the purpose of this spell is to heal your potential for giving birth to heal your future child. Giving birth takes a lot of work, so this is not a quick fix-it spell. This is a very long building up of magic.

    I call this spell Heal Your Future Potential Birth Spell, because it is a very unique intention. It is a great way to set yourself and your unborn child up for a good healthy future, not matter in what lifetime that may be. We can not be sure we've completed our karmic lessons and adding in family karma means more parties will be taken in to account in the decision to create new life in the family line. I feel this spell embodies the sensitivity and the personal intention I need. This spell is created to be done over 9 nights. I hope it inspires you to come up with your own. Some aspects and symbolism of this spell, I chose not to share. Some are way to personal and it is important to protect myself and my magic from magical harm. I will not be sharing pictures or photos either, like I do normally. Please let me know if you've had any experience, ideas, or success with a similar spell in the comments below. 

Ingredients:
` mint tea leaves
` a key
` an orange crystal egg [representation of your unborn child.]
` a cat whisker
` a teacup
` a green Opal
` a green cloth
` a green ribbon
` rose petals 

Instructions:

Step 1: [First Night] Creating a Link:

Take the carved egg and breath with it on your belly. Ask it if it would be your representation before you start, if you haven't mad3 it yourself. Meditate with it and breath in to it. Allow your energies to merge. The egg will tell you when this process is complete. Take it and roll it in to the cloth. Fold the cloth four times. Wrap the ribbon gently around it four times. You will need to take it out and rewrap it later, so not too tight.

say: "May you come in to being when the time is appropriate for us all. 

Then may you be a blessing to us all!

for the greatest good of all!"

Step 2: Commune With Your Child:

Say' "It is done!"

Place it under your pillow. This is important, so you can receive any information that might help you with your spell.

Step 3 [Second Night] The Healing:

Make yourself some tea. Be sure to set half the dry tea aside.  Use a prosperity rather than health, because you want the effects to last. You can use a cinnomon stick to stir it with. Stir in a symbol or sigil for your intention. I will be using runes myself. Imagine that intention flowing from your heart dancing in to the cup. Place the green Opal or stone of choice on the saucer or by your cup. You can sprinkle half your Rose petals around your cup. If they are safe to consume, you could add them to your tea blend. Red roses will be better for women's health and vitality. Wave the cat whisker over the tea.

Step 4: Open the Door:

Turn your key clockwise over the cup as if opening a door and say: 

"I open myself to receive.

I walk through to new ways of living

Embody new ways of being

I am healed. I believe.

Step 5: drink your tea, leaving a few drops at the bottom. As you drink listen for any messages from spirit guides, deities, or things your body may tell you. Feel the warmth spread throughout your body.

Say, "It is done!"

Step 6: Fertilize Your egg:

If your egg will not desolve, in water, you can place it directly in the water. If not, place it above the cup. This is linking your health to the health of the unborn child. Sprinkle the water on the egg or on the cloth. Sprinkle the tea in to the cloth. Wave your cat whisker over the egg slowly. If you know it, say your child's name out loud. Wrap your egg back up and stick the whisker on top or tie it in to the ribbon. Careful not to put time constraints in your intention. 

Step 7 Close Your Door:

At this point it is important to remember to close up your door. You can lock it by turning your key counterclockwise, twice or more. You may also want to clap your hands or snap over the cup to protect your magic.DO NOT FORGET this step. 

Step 8 Dream! Dream! Dream!:

Place it back under your pillow.

Say "It is done!

Step 9 The Offering:

Offer the water and spell remains to the earth in a sacred place and thank her for their help. You can also scatter the rea in to your garden.

Say "be it so!"